“I can’t plan for the long-term, and I just can’t think about what would happen to my daughter if something happened to me. Right now, I just have to get through each day.”
My wage controls my life. I wish it didn’t, but when my partner and I make only a little more than $600 per week between the two of us, it feels like every decision is based on money. It’s hard to support ourselves, my daughter, and my sister on less than $3,000 per month.
I have a certificate as an electrical apprentice, and I work as an ICT operator testing motherboards to make sure they function properly. I’m thankful for the work, and that I’m doing something that I’m trained for, but it’s only a temp-to-hire position so I don’t know how stable this will be. Plus, my training left me with student loans, so once I make more money I will need to start paying those back, too.
As it is, I have to give up everything that is not essential to make ends meet. Our rent takes up almost half of our income, and we live in a pretty violent neighborhood with lower rent than some other areas. But, it’s the best we can do right now. I drive a beat-up car that feels like it’s always close to breaking down, and I don’t have any savings for retirement or emergencies. I don’t even have enough money to let my daughter enroll in recreational activities.
I wish we could move to a better neighborhood, or even have enough money to take my daughter to the movies sometimes. I can’t plan for the long-term, and I just can’t think about what would happen to my daughter if something happened to me. Right now, I just have to get through each day.
Growing up, I had dreams of success, and of making a better life for myself, but I can never reach those dreams earning so little. For now, I’m just doing everything humanly possible to raise my daughter to excel and succeed. If I can’t give her everything she wants right now, at least I can be a good example so that maybe one day she can achieve her dreams.